I must apologise for being such a miserable bastard. I do try and smile sometimes. Very occassionally *wane smile*.

Oh had massive hangover all day at work, had none of my usual crew to talk to, and to top it off my brain decided to dwell on the "fun" subject of Ben. I thought I was over my little infatuation. I don't know whether you thought that, but I did. I was wrong. And I shouldn't be infatuated with anyone other than Stephen. And specially shouldn't be infatuated with someone who also has a boyfriend, and is well out of my league.

He leaves town for good in a couple of days. Once he is gone I will get over this. I am very fickle.

On other note.... Sister Mary matthew ius very very clever!! We love him!