I miss being depressed. I miss being lonely. I miss sweet melancholy
I know that might sound a little strange but there really is something good about a little bit of melancholy. I got to the point a few years back where it was easier to be depressed than happy. I loved settling down to watch tv shows like Will and Grace and bemoaning my love life. I enjoyed listening to depressing music. I enjoyed having my dark little secrets. And now... nothing! Oh sure I worry, I get stressed, I feel a little bored with somethings. But no deep comforting blanket of selfish depression.
I haven't been properly depressed in YEARS. It's very strange. I was listening to the Manic Street Preachers the other day and I just got this memory of a feeling of utter dark unhappiness, and I LOVED IT. It's such an EASY emotion.
I shouldn't complain about it too much I suppose...
Who wants to be Louis Theroux?? I've just got back into watching my old favourites like Weird Weekends and I have to say that man has met some interesting people. Just watched Porn where he gets a walk on role in a gay porn movie while shadowing a gay for pay actor. Awesome.
Gay for pay? You would not get me to have sex with a woman for less than 10 grand... I can't understand the whole gay for pay thing... each to their own I suppose.
Chad Michael Murray is v. cute.